Presentation day

It was yesterday when I unfortunately had to go and see the doctor. Guess not something anyone likes to do. But it was an emergency, I been neglecting a lump in the armpit for years now and a colleague told me she had one too, which turned out to be a cyst which had to be surgically removed, that was scary enough for me to call for a appointment to see a doctor asap. It was an 8 o’clock appointment, wondered how I would manage with sweet pea’s breakfast and getting there in time and back to work. My stupid alarm clock didn’t go off, so I got up sharp at 8. I rushed and got there before 8.30. After having to wait in the long line to get a token number I finally made it down the staring line of strangers. As if people don’t see a girl going to see a doctor alone. People actually ask me, where is your husband? As if I cannot do this on my own. I been so used going to see the doctor alone, even when I was expecting sweet pea, until the nurses warned me and told me to bring assistant in case I had to deliver. It’s so hassle free, get some time alone to think things through, a moment to me. I am not much of a fan of taking someone along for shopping either, why cause then I might have to end up buying things person I tag along prefers. Anyways getting back to the subject, there I was waiting and waiting for my number, I was observing the people back too. I don’t know since having my little man, every pregnant lady or when I see kids it bring a smile. I was thinking this is a presentation too, everyone here is presenting their case and depending on how well and how someone presents it doctors gives us results. I was watching the old and the young going about, with their x-rays and scans and people asking each other what you are here for. There was this old man in a row in front of me; he said ''what are you here for?'' I doubted he was asking me but I replied to see the doctor! I know dumb answer. Why else would I be in a hospital?! He giggled away and come to find he was talking the person behind me!! The wait got so long it made me think a lot, like how I was going to give my excuses for not seeing the doctor sooner; I assumed doctor was going to be displeased for my delay. I was praying I wouldn’t have to go through a surgery with my little man so young, a day or two without him would kill me. I finally made it in and I was so speechless forgetting to say anything. Doctor thought I was nervous and scared he kept assuring me everything is fine, he said now that I had already come to see him that I was under his care and he will take care of it. After an inspection he gave me some medications to heal a swollen lymph node, if possible if not I guess it would be surgery after all. Doctor was a nice gentleman and I was glad I chose to see him. And I certainly have lost touch with my presentation skills.

Its not "your" thoughts that count

Ive heard this zillions of times, I witness this all the time. I never had the time to fully grasp this issue.You know how people say after a quarrel, if she doesn't talk first why I should be the one to talk. Why be polite to someone when they will not return the favor? If she goes aboard and does not bring a souvenir why should I bring her? She didn't give me any presents for my birthday why should i giver her any.. I myself am guilty on this count since Ive said to my dad, you gave me a cheap present for my birthday so next year you shall get a cheaper present too!! But I know better now and I have been most disturbed about this. Ive realized it's not what the other people think that count the most, it's what God things of you that matters.Being nice to someone even if they do not return the favor is great, because you are being yourself to help someone, it's their bad they do not return the favors but maybe if you continue to be yourself just maybe they might learn to be helpful people too.Being stubborn,hatred and revenge are sinful acts. We should not let pride get the best of us, after quarrels so what if i am the first one to break the ice, that makes me humble. God looks upon everyone's actions. Bless you.

Thank You

Where do I begin,
How do I describe my feelings,
How do express my joy, you brought to my life..
Since the day I knew you of you I been blessed,
Life changed for the better,
I made amends and made a better life for you & me,

All the hours, weeks, & months of waiting was worth the wait,
When you opened your tiny eyes & looked at me, my heart melted away,
I knew I waited for this moment all my life, reborn to be your mom,
I know I will do what ever it takes to make you happy,
to keep you safe and loved, my purpose to live,

It been a great journey so far,
Love the smiles, bites, the sounds you make,your laughs, silly little things you do,
Now that you can talk, its good to hear the i love you's, umahs,
Not forgetting the big big hugs you give,
I could wake up several times all my life just to hold you, to be near you,
I love the bond we share,
I know you get super excited when I am around and super moody too at times,
cause you know no matter what you do I would always be there,

At times it could get tough for you & me,
but baby hope you know I am doing the best I could,
Hope someday we can both look back and laugh over the silly things we do together,
Our dancing, our tickling sessions, our book reading,
I hope you know, Im grateful you chose me to be your mom,
You have taught me to relive, through your eyes I have began to see life in a very different preservative.
To be excited over little thing, to be nervous over things all over again,
You have brought life back into my life little man,
I so love you and I want to thank you for the happiness you have brought into my life :)